The Unknown

It takes enormous courage to make decisions, decisions that can possibly change your life.

Venturing into the unknown creates anxiety as we do not know what to expect and you will tend to compare it with what you had previously.

However, if you have not tried, you will never know if the "unknown" is better or worse unless you experienced it yourself.

Like what my friend said, you will never know unless you tried.

I guess its time.

Kids are just kids...

Over the past few days, we have been thinking how to break the news to the people around us, family, friends, colleagues & etc.

On Monday, I met my siblings over dinner as it's Gabriel's 2nd Birthday.

As usual, they have started dinner (its 8pm by the time we reached). After Ivy took a seat, Fabian offered her red wine. My instant response was that she can't drink, hoping that they can get the hint. No, they did not. I was thinking that its a wasted chance.

After visiting the washroom, my 2 other sisters joined the table. As gracious hosts, they offered the same thing to Ivy as well. I replied that she can't drink. Charisa, usually the slower of the lot, wondered why she can't drink. Then she asked if Ivy is expecting and finally, the cat is finally out of the bag. They all cheered as its an occasion to be happy about.

What followed next was probably the more interesting part.

After hearing the cheer, my 2 nieces came over and ask their mummy what happened. Jean asked them to guess. Azel was spot-on and her sister tried to refute her by replying that it cannot be. Its probably because yee-yee got a boyfriend already.

Kids are so funny and its akin to having "Kinder Surprise". You will never know what they can bring to you each day. =)

Next up will be my mum which I am totally clueless how to break the news to her.

Can you drive?

Can you drive? This is the question Sandra asked when I offered her a lift to her next destination after a typical day in office which ended at 9pm.

It didn't help since I provided her some after office-hours "entertainment" when I kept referring to the wrong colour tabs in the Excel spreadsheet in our discussion.

Despite the physical deficiency, I still managed to pass the colour test put up by the Traffic Police on numerous occasions (as I need to pass the same test for my motorcycle license as well). If you can pass the test, it should mean that you can see and drive safely right? After all, driving is not all about colours as there are more factors that can affect your judgement and be a road hazard :P

Baby Scan

Pretty exciting to see baby scan photos for the first time. Its 'live', meaning you can actually see the heartbeat.


Not exactly sure what lies ahead but we will need to start prepare ourselves for it.

Tears

Not sure when was the last time I saw my staff cried.

I thought I was the last person to shed tears within my section.

Not sure why. Not sure how to solve it either.

I guess I will let nature takes it course and continue to reflect on it at the same time.

Emotion Roller-Coaster

Been lazy with my updates again.

Still remember my last post when I was lamenting about university graduates not having enough initiative? What I experienced in the last 6 months showed that my observations are not exactly correct as I came across 2 of them who were motivated in their own ways and showed me that things were not as bad as I thought it was.

However, good things don't last I guess.

天下没有不散的筵席。One of them left us just last month. It started me thinking what I really want and how I am going to get them.

I have something in mind but will need lots of discipline plus luck/opportunities to make it come true.

I will work hard on the discipline aspect while seeking the right opportunity. I guess we have to make things happen rather than wait for things to happen, right?

March on.....

Its been a while since I last blogged. Lack of energy perhaps.

Today I am feeling down, pretty down in fact.

Getting real tired, need to find new motivation in any form, to push on or to march on.

Kinda lost my cool, feeling really frustrated all of a sudden. I seems to be bored down by work, not because of the load but more of the strain.

Sounds cheem?

Indeed, its not so much the rush to finish up the work to meet the demands of policyholders but its the effort needed to make new headways, plus the nitty-gritty of things that I need to micro-manage which is not supposed to be the case.

Aren't graduates supposed to be highly motivated and intellectual, at least perceived to be? Is the main churning by the Singapore Education System diluting the quality?

Perhaps, perhaps, perhaps....